…. “When people ask me about having children or not having children, I never tell them what to do…,” Morrie said now, looking at a photo of his oldest son. “I simply say, ‘There is no experience like having children. That’s all. There is no substitute for it. You cannot do it with a friend. You cannot do it with a lover. If you want the experience of having complete responsibility for another human being, and to learn how to love and bound in the deepest way, then you should have children”….
( from “Tuesday with Morrie” by Mitch Albom)
Here is my diary about my journey of love, the memories of the wonderful moment when my children took their first breath here in this Planet Earth…
..my mind flies back to this moment when I and my wonderful husband Erik came here for the first time in this barren-desert land, Muscat-Sultanate of Oman in Middle East. Never had I heard and little I knew about this country before. Faith then brought the two of us here with Erik’s assignment in the oilfield job in Muscat. A newlywed couple with abundance of love, hope and expectation…. Facing a totally new life away from the homeland, a little bit worried what to expect, but ready for the new adventure…just the two of us.
Then not so long after that, I found myself pregnant… WHAT??? Should I be happy? Or not? Well… I should be happy at that time, but still I remember my worries occupied my mind stronger than the happy feeling. I really would like to have a child, but I just worried that I cannot give the best to my child with my condition: newlywed, newly mom, newly moved in a foreign country. Everything was just new to me. I know almost nothing in this land, not even a friend. I was so overwhelmed with a lot of adjustments…
With the great support of my husband Erik, hand in hand together, we faced the big day: the birth of my daughter Aubrey Celestine, here in Muscat. I was so lucky to be able to access a great facility of health care here; at least it would lessen my worried on the delivery process of my baby for the first time. To be surrounded with a great team of Obstetrician, Pediatrician and great midwives, nurses, and my husband Erik-a nervous father to-be, I trusted and surrendered myself in their hands…
I was so amazed with this little tiny creature before my eyes: so fragile, so precious, and so depend on me-oh my baby! Sometimes she smiled at me, sometimes she cried out loud. She was so demanding for love and care, leaving me the exhausted and sleepless night.
But, my baby, there is nothing you could ever do to make me stop loving you… no, nothing!
And then….. Six years later, when everything was settle down, another new joyful moment happened again: the birth of my son Fernando, here in Muscat-Oman. Once again we celebrated the miracle of life in this beautiful and magnificent land-surrounded with the silent golden desert; the rocky jebels (mountain) soar up high, the elegant sand dune…. the abundance of sunshine, land of frankincense and ripe-sweet date fruits in the summer time….
I wake up each day in this sun gilded land,
to see you grow and glow in this land
With the abundance of hope fill my mind
someday, when you grow up,
this memories will be wrapped warm in your heart
with the values you’ve learn in this barren-desert land
to be brave and tough, strong and sturdy
So I am, your mother, will proudly proclaim
‘My life is complete, I feel contented.
Aubrey and Fernando, you are my children of the sun,
My oasis in the barren desert land’
Muscat, Sultanate of Oman-September 2011